Feeling Disempowered Programs: The High Cost of Low Self-Esteem – Part 5

worthlessnessWe’ve been talking about some of the hidden low self-worth and self-esteem programs that limit our success, impact our health and well being and damage our relationships with ourselves and others.

One of the most sinister hidden programs is, “I Am Powerless.”  This hidden program is linked to the program of “Worthlessness.”  However, the energy is different.  People running the program of worthlessness have a powerful belief that they are not deserving of anything good.  People who have the hidden program of “Powerlessness,” usually believe that they are deserving of having what they want, but don’t believe they have the power or resources to obtain it.  They don’t believe they have the ability to achieve their goals and dreams.

At the core of this program is that others are more talented, stronger, smarter, more resourceful, accomplished and more deserving than you.  The underlying belief is that you just don’t have what it takes to succeed.  That there are people, circumstances or hidden blocks that stand between you and your goals and success that you cannot overcome.

This program and belief is often created by childhood experiences such as having controlling or abusive parents.  If you were forced to follow specific rules that didn’t allow you to think or act for yourself, you are at high risk for having this as a hidden program.

Recently I worked with a client who was very accomplished.  She had two masters degrees and was working on her PhD.  She is published, a phenomenal motivational speaker and therapist.  She came to me because she was unhappy and felt like she was blocked from success.  She felt like she could not speak up for herself, and she wanted to figure out why her business wasn’t as successful as she knew it could and should be.

At her corporate job she was passed over again and again for positions for which she was uniquely qualified.  She said, “It’s like I’m completely invisible!  I just don’t get what I’m doing wrong!”  She was extremely unhappy and felt like she was stuck in a job she hated, but couldn’t quit because of the money.

Because she felt she was being overlooked so often at work, she began her own business and it would go well – up to a certain point.  Then something would happen and clients would disappear and the money would dry up.  She would rebuild her practice and watch the cycle happen again and again.  She felt powerless to make the shift from working at the corporate level and making the leap to her private practice because of the money fluctuations.

Working with my client, we discovered that her mother had struggled with a life-threatening illness.  So much time and resources were invested in the mother’s treatment that my client felt like she was constantly ignored and over-looked.  Her emotional needs never got met.  She felt resentful and angry because she felt invisible and unloved at times, then felt guilty because she knew how much her mother was suffering.  And she felt guilty that she had no power to help her mother overcome the illness.

Eventually her mother did overcome her illness.  She remarried a man who was overly protective of her mother and was very strict with my client.  She was forced to maintain high grades, while maintaining the household chores and cooking for the family so her mother was never overly stressed.  Any extra-curricular activities were not allowed because she had so many responsibilities.

As a teen my client was bullied by a group of kids at school.  She was cruelly taunted, made fun of and even physically abused.  No one intervened on her behalf.  She simply endured the bullying until she graduated and went to college on a full scholarship.

What we uncovered was a hidden belief that she needed to be invisible.  That invisibility was important to her safety and that she needed to not make any waves as a child so that it didn’t cause her mother any stress that would make her more ill.  She felt like she was never in control of her life, and never had been.  She felt that someone had always had more authority over her than she had for herself.  The bullying had made her feel that she could not stand up for herself and that it was her lot in life to be the punching bag, door mat or servant for others.  Deep inside, she felt that she didn’t really matter.  She was even questioning her efficacy as a therapist.

This hidden “I’m Powerless” program was causing her to unconsciously sabotage her business.  She didn’t feel like she had the power to change her circumstances.  But even more, when she did make changes, they seemed to make her feel more disempowered her!  She began questioning her value, her work and herself.  The program and belief that she needed to stay invisible, kept her from being promoted at the corporate level.  And it prevented potential clients from seeing her and how her gifts and talents could really help them.

Within days of clearing this hidden low self-esteem program, she was approached by a head hunter for a very high-level position at a different company.  She chose to take the position and to continue to work on her entrepreneurial business as well.  She raised her rates, and at our last session had a waiting list of clients who wanted to work with her.

How might this hidden program be running in your life?  Where do you feel like you are out of control?  What are the different ways you feel helpless to change things in your life?  Do you feeling you don’t matter – or that what you do doesn’t matter?  Do you feel trapped?  Hopeless?  Invisible?  Without resources to change your circumstances?

As you explore these questions and investigate the roots of your feelings, make sure you keep a journal of all that you have been feeling and experiencing.  Use the Quantum Soul Clearing Process to release the negative feeling that come up as you explore what is holding you back.

And if you need help, I’m here to help you find the hidden, underlying low self-worth and self-esteem programs that might be tripping you up.


The idea of acceptance can be challenging to us all at times. True acceptance dictates that we’re able to receive the present moment and the feelings (including discomfort) that come with doing so. Compare your moments of acceptance to how you feel when you’re in a place of non-acceptance or resistance to what’s going on. Think about how those two places differ and consider how you can make the shift from resistance to acceptance.

All too often we become consumed by changing our circumstances when we should simply make an effort to become conscious of being present and not get caught up in trying to make everything different. We talk about manifesting, and we’d all like to manifest abundance, health, and a great new world.  At some point, however, we have to stop and accept where we are, being able to be comfortable and grateful for that place and in that energy. We need to feel and accept that energy, being able to burst forward from that place of acceptance with “I’m ok where I am”. Are you able to accept in this way?

As a society, it seems as if we’re bred to accept resistance in our everyday lives. Every commercial you see on TV is about a new wonderful way to not accept who you are (i.e. makeup and hair dye). Even the act of taking a painkiller to get rid of a headache is a sign of resistance; that headache represents of a non-acceptance of something at some level, whether you know something’s going on emotionally and mentally. There’s so much non -acceptance that it appears that we’re constantly pushing against ourselves. Somewhere in there, though, it feels like we’re pretty close to being ready as a society to open the gate and stop pushing.

Humanity has suffered from multiple personality syndromes for many, many thousands of years. We have the flesh which is carnal and sinful, the mind where the ego resides, and then we have a spirit which is just kind of here waiting to live out its full potential. We’ve been taught for thousands of years to embrace this split personality but now, it seems enough of us have begun to realize that we are this energy, this life, this creative force and that we are not fractured. It’s an experience, an illusion of being fractured that we’ve been creating for ourselves but in actuality, our intellect and bodies exist because we are eternal, spiritual, energy creative beings. We are fusing the three (flesh, ego, and spirit) back together and in essence, doing what a good shrink would do, pulling all the parts back together and fulfilling our potential.

Consider this scenario: what if I was the creator, creating this experience of life as me, playing as me and the perspective I play? Think about the moments that you really struggle the most with accepting, and ask yourself what if I’m creator. Your focus will completely change because you’ll no longer be stuck on the infinitesimal details, the “everything that’s wrong that I’d love to fix” minutiae. It all comes back to considering things from a much bigger and broader perspective.

Acceptance is like the WD40 of life, and in your moments of acceptance, there’s no resistance once you decide that you don’t need to do this. Even when things aren’t quite going as planned or as you hoped, allow yourself a moment of surrender and say out loud, “I’m ok!” Feel the flow of energy move through your body, through each cell. Allow yourself to be in a different space than you were in just two minutes before, live in that ok-ness and place of acceptance, and start your day anew.

Clearing 9/11


Tuesday was September 11, 2012. It was the 11th anniversary of the attacks on the Twin Towers in New York City. That there has been much controversy, pain and suffering throughout the world about this one event would be profoundly understating the obvious.

As I was preparing for bed the night before (OK, it was actually VERY early in the morning on the 11th!), I heard that “Voice” that often talks to me. “Michelle, you need to do a 9/11 clearing for your people.”

I thought, “Ummmmm… OK… it’s a bit late to put something together and get people to participate. But OK….” I mean I literally had less than 12 hours to put out the information and let people know! But when I get messages like these, I always know it’s not really a “request,” it’s more of a command. So I looked at my calendar and interestingly, there was a very rare 90-minute gap in my schedule for the next day! That might not have been a coincidence.

So I whipped up an email with the information and sent it out – only to have to resend it because the first email had the wrong times on it! I sent it to people I had been on telesummits with and posted to my facebook and twitter accounts. I even sent personal emails to people that I wasn’t sure were even on my mailing list! (My apologies to those who actually got three emails about the same thing!)

The call was scheduled for 2:30 p.m. my time, and as the time neared, I prepared for the call as I always do. I ground myself, do my connecting-in prayer that I teach all my students and listeners, and I asked for Divine Guidance and Assistance. I wasn’t certain what I was going to clear (I rarely am, when I do these calls), but as I got clearer and more centered, I knew that I had to clear 9/11, itself – which is what we did.

Like almost every American who was alive that day in 2001, I was horrified and traumatized by what was transpiring almost 2000 miles from where I lived. Being the Empath and Intuitive that I am, the collective energies were overwhelming. Within a short period of time I could no longer watch the news or listen to the radio. I cried often and in copious amounts, until I could begin to clear myself of the energies by which I was being bombarded and create a protective cocoon around myself.

After some time – and after each anniversary of the event – I continued to clear myself, and so I thought that doing this clearing would help others more than it would help me. I considered it a gift of service to the world.

I have to say that as the call began, I was shocked as tears immediately came to my eyes and I became very emotional. I’m sure that much of what I was feeling was the collective sorrow and trauma still active in people. But what astonished me even more was the immense flow of energy that began filling my body as I began doing the meditation and clearing work.

Within minutes, my whole body was shaking almost uncontrollably with the energy. You can hear it in my voice, throughout the call. It almost sounds like I’m scared to death, but it was a surge of pure, white, powerful LIGHT filling me and transmitting through me like I’ve never experienced before in my life. My whole body was trembling like I was freezing cold, although I wasn’t. It was more like a continual electrical shock wave flowing through me for almost an hour!

This clearing call was one of the most spiritual and humbling experiences I have ever had. I’m not sure I can put an exact description on my experience – and doing so might perhaps limit it. I just know that the flow of energy through me has transformed me.  I also know that this energy was captured and transmitted to everyone who was on the call and who has listened to the replay so far.  I’ve listened to the replay and I can feel the energy of it just as strongly as when it was happening.

I decided that the best way to share this call was make it into a video. Which I’ve done. I’ve posted it on Vimeo (YouTube only allows me 15 minutes at a time – which completely disrupts the whole process!) so that anyone who would like to hear and participate in the energy that is captured from that call can listen and receive healing. Here’s the link:

I’d love to hear your feedback and experiences after you’ve listened to the clearing work. Drop me a note at Michelle@QuantumSoulClearing.com – or share on my Quantum Soul Clearing facebook page https://www.facebook.com/quantumsoulclearing?ref=hl.  Please feel free to share the video with others.

Then get ready for the Universal Explosion of Joy and Transformation – which will be a clearing like this every day for 30 days! Imagine what transformation we could all experience as we clear some of the heaviest world energies for the entire planet! http://www.quantumsoulclearing.com/transformation