Lockdown: Time to Transform

Today, as I reflect on what is emerging in the stillness of this lockdown energy, I had a epiphany about my health. And how this time may be impacting you, as well.

I believe that during this quiet, introspective time, we are healing, clearing, processing anything from the past that hasn’t completely shifted. Or perhaps we’re able to access a different, deeper facet of that healing. Or both.

The last couple of weeks, as I have stepped into serving others and re-building my business, I have felt like I hit an energetic wall. It was like I just could not find enough energy to do everything I need to do around the house, let alone get on line and support others!

In fact, my body hasn’t felt well for several weeks. I’ve had chest pain, shortness of breath, a great deal of edema throughout my body (probably about 20-30 lbs of excess fluid!), and have just needed a lot more sleep.

I finally got a hold of my integrative practitioner and had her do a scan for me. She called me back and said she’d found a set of viruses that seem to be impacting my heart and suggested that I get a full cardio workup. I had to admit that that news really set me back!

And then I got to thinking about the patterns of health issues in my life.

Huh! How fascinating! I had just been working on a list of ways that my life had been profoundly impacted when I was diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis back in 1986.

Here’s a partial list of how rheumatoid arthritis changed my life. And remember, I was only 26 years old, with two small daughters to raise!

Couldn’t walk up and down stairs.
Hands were swollen, frozen and crippled and I couldn’t write
Couldn’t continue my business I’d built up
Unable to care for myself or my daughters
The stress of not being able to run my fresh squeezed juice business or work for anyone else contributed to my profound depression and caused terrible financial hardship

This is just a partial list, and I’ll be sharing more in the coming weeks of how illness changed my life and what I had to do to overcome crippling arthritis.

But my point here – is that there is a recurring theme! Every time I have stepped into a bigger role as a business person, leader, healer, mentor, author, speaker, etc., this pattern of illness shows back up! Can you relate?

You start something new. You have big visions and dreams, and then – BAM!! – something happens to sideline you. It could be a health issue, a relationship issue, money issues, fear or anxiety, or an entirely different pattern. But something side-lines you and you end up frustrated, depressed, angry at yourself, wondering if you’ll ever realize your dreams.

And this is what is up for me right now!

What is fascinating, is that as I pulled my Human Design chart from back then, looking at the transits, and my current Human Design chart transits, there are MANY similarities!! It’s almost like Ground Hog Day, 34 years later!

What’s even more fascinating to me, is that it is likely related to rheumatoid arthritis, but this time it seems to be affecting my heart. And three years ago my heart was “broken” by betrayal (yep coming up on THAT anniversary!). So what needs to be healed?

For me, what needs to be healed is the pattern of clearing and deleting the pattern of illness that interferes with business and my ability to be of service to others. It’s addressing the pain of loss and grief from losing an identity. It’s choosing to show up for myself, instead of allowing the old patterns of pain and feeling broken to stop me in my tracks.

So, why am I sharing this very personal story with you?

Because I believe that our deepest, darkest, most painful, unhealed frequencies are finally able to come to the surface and be address, healed, and released. Once and for all! And the way that those old patterns keep their hold on you is through silence and secrecy.

These old, deep, excruciating pain patterns are exactly what keep us from feeling and being successful. They stand in the way of our brightest dreams and desires. They keep us looping in the lie that we are not enough. Not smart enough. Not lovable enough. Not pretty or handsome enough. Not capable of making the money we want and need. Not capable of living the life we truly desire.

And that, my friend, is exactly the gift of this time. Yeah, I know it doesn’t feel much like a gift. In fact, it feels pretty crappy, and scary and horrible, if you ask me! But there is a golden lining to the emotions that are emerging in the silence and isolation of being at home.

What if the only way to what you really desire is through the fire of transformation and healing? Are you willing to do the healing and self-examination to get to the other side? I guarantee, it’s not for the faint of heart! (Pun intended!)

How worth it would it be to come out of this down time as a whole new person? Someone who has faced their demons and is ready to shine. Someone who is fearless in their determination to succeed and to live their gifts and talents the fullest. To inspire others and revolutionize the world with your work.

If you want, I can help. That is MY gift – to see what is lurking in the shadows and to delete the programming. To help set you free to thrive and be free of the past. Let’s connect. No obligation. Just clarity. Here’s a link to my calendar. https://michellemanningkogler.as.me/MichellesCosmicClaritySession

Let’s figure out what YOUR hidden (or not so hidden) patterns are – and what you can do to release them. This is the time for your transformation!